Monday, 20 July 2009

My Birth Story - almost had a roadside baby!



Well it's been a while since I posted but I have a good reason this time!

Finally... My Birth Story for Ffion Elsbeth Pritchard!

(Welsh, meaning Foxglove, pronounced 'fee-on')

Arrived: Wednesday 1st July 2009, 2.35am
Weight: 7lb 3oz

Tuesday 30th June (5 days over)

5 am: Woke with what I thought may be contractions but I wasn't sure, they were just cramps and were coming every 20 mins or so. I kept an eye on them but they came to nothing and I got back to sleep. I got on with my day as usual, feeling not quite myself. In the afternoon I had a very runny tummy so put the early morning pains down to that.

6 pm: Mum and I took the dog out for a walk, told her it would have to be shorter than usual as I was starting to cramp again... I wanted to feel hopeful but was convinced it would turn out to be a false alarm. They were coming around every 20/30 mins.

9 pm: By now they were coming between 5-10 mins apart, and lasting around 30secs. I ate my dinner heartily knowing that I would need the energy (only to see it again a few hours later!!). This was now it and I knew it - what I didn't know was how quickly the next few hours would go - and how high my pain threshold was! Through out the evening, the contractions got closer together and longer. I was handling them by walking around alot and mum rubbing my back, mainly on the decking in the garden due to the heat!

11 pm: We called the birthing centre to let them know things had started and for me to talk through a contraction. They told me I was definately in early labour and to call again when the contractions were around 3 mins apart and lasting just under a minute. They warned me that I could be in it for the long haul as it was my first...

12.30 am: They were now coming every 3mins and lasting around a minute, we called and again I talked through a contraction. They said I still seemed to be handling them well so again to keep an eye on things and call when I thought I couldn't cope anymore.

1 am: They were coming every 2mins and lasting nearly as long. I was in total agony! Thinking I was still in early labour (LOL), I was crying to Mum... "I can't do this! It's too painful! I'm not coping at all! I'll need an epidural at this rate, I'll have to go to the hospital rather than the birthing centre! I'm a wimp!"
Little did we know I was almost fully dilated and had coped with no pain relief.

2 am: Mum called saying that I was struggling now and they told us to come in just to check. I was desperate to go in and get some pain relief but was dreading them telling me that I was only 3cm dilated or something and to come back later!
Mum and Dad and I jump in car with hospital bag. On the journey I felt a huge urge to poo!! I was mortified at the thought of either pooing in the car or arriving covered in poo! So I told dad to find a lay-by for me to go in!!! Fortunately we didn't find one and were nearly at the centre anyway...

2.25 am: I waddle into the birthing centre and tell them I must poo immediately! The midwife comes with me to check... "That's not a poo my love, that's your babies head coming!" We rush into the pool room and she asks me whether I would prefer the bed or floor, I glance over at the empty pool, she says "I haven't got time to fill the sink, let alone the pool!"

2.28 am: I kneel on all fours on the bed, stick the gas and air into my mouth and start pushing! Mum and the midwife spurring me on!

2.35 am: It's a girl!! Ffion Elsbeth Pritchard is born! The cord is cut, we have immediate skin to skin contact and she starts to breast feed.

2.53 am: Out to the toilet to deliver the placenta naturally and - thank goodness - quickly... 2 mins in fact!

I did experience some heavy bleeding around 2-3 hours after delivering which caused me to faint. They are not sure of the exact reason why, but all is ok and I quickly recovered.

My overwhelming feeling about my labour and Ffion's birth is one of relief and joy. Although my birth didn't go to plan at all, it was eventful and I have no regrets or upset over it! If anything, it makes the story more exciting (and funny too!)... I can't believe that she could have almost been born in a lay-by! And I can't believe after thinking I was coping so badly, that in fact I was reaching full dilation at home. I was surrounded by my family and although at the time I was slightly frustrated by their almost strange fascination of the pain I was in - on reflection, I wouldn't have it any other way. It was a family experience. My Mum was my rock throughout the whole time and every time a contraction came, I got through it because of her. I can't believe my beautiful baby is finally here. I'm besotted with her!

Saturday, 20 June 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

39 weeks and 2 days - Midwife today. Booked in for a sweep a week after due date if baby doesn't arrive before then... that gives you 12 days baby! come on!

Chim chim-in-ey, chim chim-in-ey, Chim chim cher-ee! A sweep is as lucky, as lucky can be!

Fetal Fact of the Day

39 weeks -
"One uncomfortable complaint of late pregnancy is frequent hiccups. No, not you, your baby. Because there is no air around your baby, when she practices breathing, it can cause amniotic fluid to get into her windpipe, resulting in those regularly spaced thumps that make you think you're carrying a jumping bean in your belly. Other news this week:

The lanugo (an exotic word for soft, downy hair) that used to cover your baby's body has mostly disappeared, but you may find a bit leftover on the shoulders, forehead and neck. Don't freak and think you've given birth to a monkey: It'll fall out soon.

The color of baby's skin is changing from a red-pink hue to a white or blue-pink color (even in babes with dark skin). These changes are due to the amount of fat your little pudger is putting on. The circumference of your baby's head and abdomen are about the same size now (though you may not be able to tell if your baby's born with the common cone-shaped head!).

The placenta is lending your Mini antibodies that'll keep him strong and healthy after birth. That said, it's still a good idea to invest in that mega-size bottle of hand sanitizer.

At this point your little critter is about 19 to 20 inches long and weights about 7 pounds. That's just around the size of a large rabbit. What's up Doc?"

Thanks to: http://3dpregnancy.parentsconnect.com/calendar/39-weeks-pregnant.html

Quote of the Day

"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for"
Anonymous

Monday, 15 June 2009

What a relief

What a relief... after 10 weeks of neglecting this blog I am finally up to date on all the weeks I missed - Thank goodness for my hand written journal and twitter for reminders of my weekly progress. And also thank goodness for the huge resources on the internet these days.

I have loved reading about my babys development in the womb, along with the changes that are happening to my body. Many of the astonishing facts I wouldn't have read if it wasn't for writing this blog... things like:

The fact my uterus is now thousands times bigger than it was... in the space of 9 months?!

The fact that I am carrying around 6-8lbs worth of extra fluid!

And knowing that by the time I reach full term my blood volume will have increased up to a staggering 50%!

I hope you have enjoyed reading all the facts too.

With just 2 weeks to go til my estimated due date I will try and keep the blog updated... and of course share my birth story on here... however that may turn out!!

Mama Fact of the Day

38 weeks - I am seriously nesting...

"If you can't stop Windexing everything in sight or you have a sudden desire to rearrange your linen closet again, then you're officially nesting. Nesting is the phenomena where exhausted and very pregnant women suddenly find the energy and the drive to clean like their life depends on it.

Though many women think "nesting" is a wives' tale, it's actually not the stuff of urban legend, and many women get the powerful urge to ready their home for the impending arrival in the final weeks of pregnancy."

I am also seriously huge...

Fetal Fact of the Day


38 weeks - "Your baby's intestines have accumulated a considerable amount of meconium (the code name for black, tar-like baby poop), which is usually eliminated shortly after birth and gives you your first experience with the 100-wipe diaper change.

Baby's lungs continue to mature and her brain and nerve function are working better every day. The latter two will continue to mature until Junior is a teenager, at which point she'll know it all (or at least she'll think she does)."

Quote of the Day

"Feeling fat lasts nine months but the joy of becoming a mom lasts forever."
Nikki Dalton

Sunday, 14 June 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

37 weeks - My energy levels are really high this week... things seem to be on the move, albeit slowly! I believe I had a 'show' earlier in the week.
I have seen the midwife, everything is normal and she says the baby is 2-3/5 engaged. This means 2-3/5 of the babies head is engaged in my pelvis.

Fetal Fact of the Day


37 weeks - "Huge news this week: You're carrying a full-term baby! If you were to go into labour today, all systems would be a go. Woohoo!

Baby's growth slows down dramatically this week, which is great news for your birth canal. His bones are still soft and pliable and will solidify after he's born. More great news for your birth canal.

So if he's all cooked and ready to go, what the heck is he still doing in there?! He's busy practicing for "life on the outside," working on his breathing, sucking, sleeping, gazing and peeing abilities. The only thing he can't practice yet is his ability to scream at the top of his lungs when he's hungry—but he'll do plenty of that in a few weeks.

At this point babies vary in size, but the average length is between 19 and 20 inches and most babies weigh approximately 6 pounds."

Quote of the Day

"To be pregnant is to be vitally alive, thoroughly woman, and undoubtedly inhabited."
Anne Buchanan & Debra Klingsporn

Mama Fact of the Day

36 weeks - I can't remember if I've mentioned my cravings yet on this blog but they have pretty much remained the same the whole way through...
Ice:
I just can't get enough, and can crunch my way through a few kilograms every week!
Paint Stripper (turps, white spirit, petrol, etc):
Not healthy but nothing beats a good whiff!


I also moved home to my parents this week, from Brighton. Always hate moving but not too stressful this time and it's good to be home!

Fetal Fact of the Day


36 weeks - Baby is gradually dropping. This is called lightening or engagement, and my lungs and stomach will finally get a chance to stretch out a little - breathing and eating should become easier... However, walking is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and I constantly need the toilet!

Quote of the Day

"Being a mother means that your heart is no longer yours; it wanders wherever your children do." Author Unknown

Mama Fact of the Day

35 weeks - "Your baby has pretty much taken over your entire torso by now. Over the past few months, he's squished and mushed all of your organs out of the way. Any day now, he'll make a final move and shove your heart up and to the left to make more room for himself. (See, he's got your heart in his hands already.)

Before all this pregnancy stuff, your uterus was a small ball the size of your fist and was tucked neatly away behind your pelvis. Today your uterus is the size of a small watermelon and reaches all the way up to your ribs.

At this point in your pregnancy all the blood has gone to your belly ... literally. Nearly 1/6 of your body's total blood volume is chugging around in the vessels in your uterus. So that's why you feel so lightheaded all the time!"

Fetal Fact of the Day


35 weeks - This week, my little one is now sporting fingernails and has a fully developed pair of kidneys. Babys liver can also process some waste products.

There's much less amniotic fluid and much more baby in my uterus, which has expanded to a thousand times its original size!!!

Quote of the Day

You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.
Dave Barry, "Things That It Took Me 50 Years to Learn"

Mama Fact of the Day

I also twitter at www.twitter.com/goingitalone
Some of my updates from 34-35 weeks:

in other news, I am still so stuck for a boys name. I have exactly one calender month to decide. (Two girls names shortlisted...finally)
4:46 PM May 24th from web

wishing she wasn't 'going this alone'. thank God for family
4:35 PM May 24th from web

laughed solidly for an hour with my mum last night.. haven't laughed like that in ages. h i l a r i o u s. and all because she farted.
2:18 AM May 20th from web

cannot believe i fell and sprained my leg on the way home from visiting dad in hospital yesterday. unbelievable. on the mend today.
10:12 AM May 19th from web

Fetal Fact of the Day


34 weeks - Baby now weighs more than 4.7lbs/2.2kgs and is around 18"/45cms from top to toe. Baby is filling out and getting rounder as it needs these fat layers later to regulate body temperature.

Babies hearing is now fully developed too so when I get a quiet moment I can talk to baby!

Quote of the Day

Life is tough enough without having someone kick you from the inside.
Rita Rudner

Friday, 12 June 2009

Mama Fact of the Day


33 weeks - and time for another bump picture to go with my 3d ones! What a good week!
I am looking very smug here - it is at my leaving do/baby shower and everyone was very kind, too kind. It was a great evening.

Fetal Fact of the Day

33 weeks - an amazing experience this week, my 3d scan! The pictures say it all...





Quote of the Day

"The most important thing she'd learned over the years was that there was no way to be a perfect mother and a million ways to be a good one."
Jill Churchill

Mama Fact of the Day

32 weeks - This is my last week of work before maternity leave. Two years later, from Sales Assistant to Internet & PR Manager, it's time to say goodbye to www.velvetstore.co.uk and all my gorgeous friends.

Fetal Fact of the Day

32 weeks - Fat layers continue to get deposited under the baby’s skin and the bones of the baby harden except for the skull. The skull needs to be soft and flexible for the delivery. The pressure on the head during child birth is so strong that many times babies are born with a cone head like appearance! These bones don’t fuse until early adulthood and so they grow as the brain and other tissues expand during infancy and childhood.

Quote of the Day

"I begin to love this creature,
and to anticipate her birth
as a fresh twist to a knot,
which I do not wish to untie."

Mary Wollstonecraft

Mama Fact of the Day

31 weeks - "It is normal to gain 1lb a week in the last trimester"
If I stick to that, my total pregnancy weight gain will be under 2st. I can live with that!!

Fetal Fact of the Day


31 weeks - My baby's organs are continuing to mature and baby is passing water from its bladder. Soon I can wonder what baby is wishing for - brain scans have shown that fetuses have periods of dream sleep around month eight! Amazing!

Quote of the Day

"Everything grows rounder and wider and weirder, and I sit here in the middle of it all and wonder who in the world you will turn out to be."
Carrie Fisher

Mama Fact of the Day


30 weeks - New bump photo, finally don't look just 'fat'!!

In other news, I think it's pretty amazing that I can blame 2-3lb weight gain on extra blood, 1-2lbs on my uterus and a whopping 5-6lbs on extra fluid & amniotic fluid!

Fetal Fact of the Day


30 weeks - My baby's lungs and digestive tract are almost fully developed.

This week my baby continues to open and shut its eyes. Baby can probably see what's going on in utero, distinguish light from dark and even track a light source. Some researchers think baring your stomach to light stimulates visual development - but rest assured I will only be doing this in the privacy of my own garden when the sun is out!

To complete the picture, baby now has eyebrows and eyelashes.

Quote of the Day

"A baby is something you carry inside you for nine months, in your arms for three years and in your heart till the day you die."
Mary Mason

Mama Fact of the Day

29 weeks - midwife appointment this morning. lucozade at 8.30am? no thanks! however, was a must for my blood tests this morning. don't think i have gestational diabetes though. baby is breech and measuring on the small side but has another 11 weeks to bake! she predicts girl...

Fetal Fact of the Day


29 weeks - My baby now weighs around 2.5 pounds/1.1 kilograms and measures about 15 inches/38 centimetres from head to toe.

Sex...
In boys, testicles descend from near the kidneys through the groin en route to the scrotum. In girls, the clitoris is relatively prominent because it's not yet covered by the still-small labia. These will grow to cover it in the last few weeks before birth.

My baby's head is getting bigger, and brain growth is very rapid at this time. Nearly all babies react to sound by 30 weeks.

Quote of the Day

"A grand adventure is about to begin."
Winnie the Pooh

Neglected

I haven't written a post for ten weeks, disgusting!

So it's time to back track and catch up with myself!

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

My blood volume increases again this week. This is one of the biggest physiological changes I will experience during pregnancy and by the time I reach full term it will have increased up to a staggering 50% (I find this utterly amazing!).

The increase is needed for extra blood flow to the uterus, to meet the metabolic needs of baby and to help my vital organs (in particular the kidneys which will grow in length by an average of 1 – 1.5cm), which are working harder than ever.

Fetal Fact of the Day

I am now 28 weeks, crikey!

Eye Eye...

My baby's eyes are partially open now and can blink. Baby has also begun having rapid eye movement.

It's eyes have colour now, too. It may not be the colour he/she ultimately ends up with, especially if they're light gray or blue. The eyes typically don't settle on a final hue until nine months after baby is born.

Finally, baby is downright chubby compared to a few weeks ago, measuring around 15in long and weighing in at 2-3lbs!

Quote of the Day

"A daughter is a mother's gender partner, her closest ally in the family confederacy, an extension of her self. And mothers are their daughters' role model, their biological and emotional road map, the arbiter of all their relationships."

Thursday, 19 March 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

Since my baby is now growing so fast, and brain development is so intense at this stage, my nutrition is very important.

I need to continue to eat a well-balanced diet that includes plenty of grains and vegetables. Fibre-rich foods, including whole-grain breads and cereals, lentils and brown rice are high in vitamin B and help fend off constipation.

Fetal Fact of the Day

26 weeks today.

From head to toe, my baby measures about 14in/35.6cm and weighs a little more than 1.6lbs/760g. (So can't blame the 10lbs on the baby!!)

My baby's eyes begin to open around now. Response to sound grows more consistent toward the end of the seventh month, when the network of nerves to the ear is complete. Baby also continues to take small breaths and although only breathing in water and not air, it's still good practice for when bubs is born.

Quote of the Day

"Sometimes the laughter in mothering is the recognition of the ironies and absurdities. Sometime, though, it's just pure, unthinking delight."
Barbara Schapiro

Monday, 16 March 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

Oh being pregnant is very glamorous! This week I have been bought a mammoth bottle of Lactulose by my parents and after this mornings 6am chronic acid reflux I'll be investing in an equal size bottle of Gaviscon...

Fetal Fact of the Day

My baby now weighs nearly 1.5 pounds/660 grams and is approximately 13.5in/35cm long from from crown to heel! Baby makes breathing movements but has no air in its lungs yet.

Quote of the Day

"By the time a man realizes that maybe his father was right, he usually has a son who thinks he's wrong." Charles Wadsworth

Monday, 9 March 2009

Photo of the Day


These boots were made for walking...
and jumping in puddles. Many thanks Cath Kidston.

Would anyone like to buy me this to match? Please?

Also lusting after a Kidston Change Bag... this or this.

Mama Fact of the Day

Now that baby is starting to take up more bump space I have started to see ripples and undulations of movement on my belly. Very strange but quite wonderful!

Fetal Fact of the Day


My baby is covered with waxy vernix. This stops him/her getting wrinkled from being in the watery womb for so long (like my fingers when I over do it on the bath time). The vernix also stops the umbilical cord getting tangled. Some may remain on my baby’s skin at birth... check out Miss. Waxy here

Quote of the Day

"Life is always a rich and steady time when you are waiting for something to happen or to hatch."
E.B. White, Charlotte's Web

Tuesday, 3 March 2009

Photo of the Day


My lovely picture from my scan 4 weeks ago... little one at 20 weeks - yoga in utero

Mama Fact of the Day

I think I experienced some early braxton hicks this moring on my walk to work.
My tummy went rock hard and I felt cramping in my uterus.


'Sometime towards the middle of your pregnancy (or even earlier), you may notice the muscles of your uterus (womb) tightening, for anywhere from 30 to 60 seconds. This may happen to you several times an hour, several times a day (Cheng et al 2006).

Not all of us feel these random, usually painless contractions, which get their name from John Braxton Hicks, an English doctor who first described them in 1872.

Experts have different opinions about Braxton Hicks contractions and their true purpose. Some believe that they play a part in getting your cervix ready for labour (also called "ripening") (Walsh 2004:430).

Others believe that Braxton Hicks contractions do not lead to changes to the cervix and that ripening only occurs in pre-labour, when the first co-ordinated contractions of labour start (Murray 2003:187; Baker 2006:53) or in labour itself (Cheng et al 2006).'
babycentre.co.uk

Fetal Fact of the Day

My baby's skeleton continues to develop, and bones inside the skull begin to harden – though they will maintain 'soft spots' until well into toddlerhood.

Quote of the Day

A mother's joy begins when new life is stirring inside... when a tiny heartbeat is heard for the very first time, and a playful kick reminds her that she is never alone.
Author Unknown

Monday, 2 March 2009

Photo of the Day

A selection of some goodies for baby!

Mama Fact of the Day

My uterus is around 1.5 to 2 inches above my belly button. I can feel my belly button starten to tighten.... uh oh!

Have been moisturising regularly to avoid stretch marks and at this point in time have no evidence of them... phew! Still 16 weeks for those bad boys to creep up on me though.

Fetal Fact of the Day

With each passing day, my baby becomes more viable - meaning he or she would have around 40 per cent chance of survival, with medical help, if they were born right now. Every day Baby Pritchards lungs are getting stronger!

Quote of the Day

Sooner or later we all quote our mothers.
Bern Williams

Saturday, 28 February 2009

Photo of the Day

Exotic Frangipani Monoi Moisture Melt -
I bought this after my Champneys Beautiful Bump treatment (kindly bought for me by two friends). The therapist used the oil during my treatment and it was truely bliss! It's great for bump as it locks in moisture but can also be used as a conditioning treatment on hair and nails. The scent of coconut and frangipani is heaven. I can't recommend it enough.

Mama Fact of the Day

My back has been killing me today.
This is due to the extra weight I am carrying in both my belly and boobs.
This will only get worse so I have to be careful with my posture and get regular exercise.
Massages can help (any takers?!), as can warm baths and support pillows.

Fetal Fact of the Day

My baby will continue to swallow amniotic fluid and recycle it as urine. The liquids and sugars that the baby retracts from the fluid is a supplement to the nutrients that the placenta delivers. You learn something new every day!

Quote of the Day

"The central struggle of parenthood is to let our hopes for our children outweigh our fears."
Ellen Goodman

Friday, 27 February 2009

Photo of the Day

We stock loads of these little hearts at work. From buttons to lavender, bead to cloth, polka dot and floral.

I love them and it's hard not to buy them all, but I am purchasing these two cuties for future nursery.

The starry one matches one of the blankets perfectly. So lovely!

Mama Fact of the Day

I just read something amazing!

At this point in my pregnancy I'm carrying around a pint of amniotic fluid! And the entire amount is completely refreshed every three hours!

This is one of many reasons why it's important to stay hydrated in pregnancy.

I'll have that sixth (decaf) cuppa after all!

Fetal Fact of the Day

23+1

I have been able to feel baby kick for a few weeks now. They are gradually getting stronger but still not enough for me to grab a friends hand and put it on my belly!

I have started to notice a slight pattern throughout the day as well: activity during mid-morning, early evening and around midnight.

My baby will be kicking and punching the uterus walls as well as running its hands along the umbilical cord. My baby can now also suck it's thumb!

Quote of the Day

"Some men just aren't cut out for paternity. Better they should realize it before and not after they become responsible for a son."
Lois McMaster Bujold

Thursday, 26 February 2009

Photo of the Day

Oh you know, just some light bedtime reading...

I can recommend all of them:

*Jools Oliver - Minus Nine to One

*Dr Gowri Motha - Gentle Birth Method

*Kate & Emily's - Guide to Single Parenting

*What to Expect When You're Expecting

*Tracy Hogg - The Baby Whisperer solves all your problems

Mama Fact of the Day

I've been getting occasional nosebleeds and gums have been bleeding lots too.

Increased blood flow during pregnancy puts pressure on your nose's delicate veins. On top of this, pregnancy hormones can make your gums swell and become inflamed, which leads to frequent bleeding.

(it's got nothing to do with my increased sweet consumption - I swear!)

Fetal Fact of the Day

I'm 23 weeks today!

My baby has a while to go before its lungs will be ready for air but in the mean time is practising "breathing" on the amniotic fluid — sucking it in and out of its lungs.

Quote of the Day

"The art of mothering is to teach the art of living to children."
By Elain Heffner

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

Photo of the Day

So I've been shopping around for 'funky' baby grows and to be honest the market is saturated. There is loads of lovely lovely things out there - at a price however.

So, being the frugal little mama-to-be that I am, and not wanting to spend £30 on a romper that the kid will be out of in mere weeks, I have bought a multi pack of plain white baby grows (working out at £1 each!) and am going to decorate them myself...

This is only the beginning... the little suit will be heavily tattooed by the time I'm finished! I will post another picture up when it's done...

I'm also considering collaborating with artists and friends... let me know if you are interested!

Mama Fact of the Day

My centre of gravity has shifted due to the weight of baby (et al) leaving me feeling clumsy, well more so than usual.
I walked into a lamp post twice on my way to work last week.
And have fallen up the stairs more than a few times.

Fetal Fact of the Day



My baby has started growing taste buds and may be able to detect strong flavours in the amniotic fluid. If we could see inside, we might catch little one sticking out its tongue for a taste... and then grimacing!

Quote of the Day

"Love and pregnancy and riding on a camel cannot be hid."
Arabic Proverb

Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday



Unlike some Mama's to be, I'm not really worried about having everything ready for the baby... to be honest I've been pretty organised so far and it's not like the shops will be closed once little one arrives.

I'm more worried about baby right now - is little one ok in there? Is something going to go wrong? I always get the fear for a bit after hearing stories of peoples loss.

I think I'm actually more worried that I'm not worried enough about the future!

I overheard my parents talking about me at the weekend saying that I had no idea how my life was about to change.

But in a way I have every idea how my life is going to change... I'll never be the same again, I know that. Surely there's nothing you can do to prepare yourself for it? Except be aware that it's going to happen. That it's never going to be just about me ever again...?


One of my favourite bloggers - Heather B. Armstrong (www.dooce.com) - puts it perfectly regarding her daughters first five years...


"You have changed so much since that first morning you spent with us, a morning that altered my life so drastically that sometimes it still feels like I'm catching my breath. I imagine that I won't ever stop feeling this way, won't ever stop having a portion of my brain dedicated to the thought of where you are and what you're doing, won't ever be able to escape the constant, nagging hope that you are happy and fulfilled. My pulse is forever closer to the surface of my neck because of you, because of my responsibility toward you, and I can't thank you enough for the dimension that this has added to what it means to be alive."


Tuesday, 24 February 2009

Gobble and Gulp




...yes that coffee is bigger than my head

Photo of the Day





lunch 24.02.09 - "I just died and went to Maugherman heaven..."

Maughermans Deli is one of my favourite lunching options in Brighton. Their take away Pasta Boxes have had me in a state of bliss more than the once. And to top it off they are the friendliest bunch of servers you will meet in a while.

http://www.maughermansdeli.co.uk/


(And a mammoth coffee to see me through the rest of the day. sorry.
local independents 1, multi national companies 1.)

Mama Fact of the Day

Eating for two - Sadly this isn't an excuse! Baby only needs me to eat around 300 extra calories a day, so no "one for baby, one for me..."

Fetal Fact of the Day


My baby resembles a newborn child at this stage. The only difference is that it is much thinner as there isn’t much development of baby fat yet (unlike its Mama!)

Quote of the Day

Your parents - they give you your life, but then they try to give you their life.
By Chuck Palahniuk

Are you enjoying your pregnancy?

I've got to say a big fat YES despite...

Still being sick every day, having nosebleeds, feeling like the walking dead most of the time, constantly aching, and worrying about little one.

All these things really being me down, the situation surrounding my pregnancy brings me down, work is bringing me down...

A friend said "sometimes is hard to remember that pregnancy isn't an illness - cause it sure feels like one sometimes"!

I always hoped that I would be one of those women that just blossomed during pregnancy. But I feel ill and frumpy!

Despite all this though, I feel truly blessed!!

Feeling a little kick melts my heart! Seeing my tummy grow is miraculous!

I love reading up about every stage of pregnancy, I love preparing for little one.

I can't wait for June! I want to meet baby SO much. But I also want to relish these last few months.

I'm trying to keep a sense of humour about it all, by laughing through the hard days, and keeping the moto that moaning is good for the soul!

I am documenting every day in two online blogs, and keeping a pregnancy journal as well. Which is really helping me.

I don't want to look back and wish I had recorded more.

...I want to look back and tell my child how sick they made me!

...How they made me cry with joy over seeing them on the ultrasound screen and feeling their little kicks.

...I want to tell them that shopping for a cot and baby things was more exciting than buying a marc jacobs dress in new york!

...I want to joke about how much they made me eat and how spotty I got!

...And I want them to know how much I loved them before they were even here!

Monday, 23 February 2009

Mama Fact of the Day

Colostrum - the "first milk" that the breasts produce as a precursor to breast milk. Breasts grow and develop throughout pregnancy and at around 16 weeks they start producing this rich, high-protein pre-milk, ready for when baby is born.

Unfortunately for me and my bras, the colostrum decided to start leaking as soon as my boobs started producing it!

But it doesn't happen to everyone. Some may not get their milk in until a day or two after the birth.

Fetal Fact of the Day

At 22 weeks the baby measures between 20-27cm and weighs around just 1lb!

Photo of the Day



This is little one at 14 weeks and 4 days. I think it's the cutest photo ever. Naturally.

Quote of the Day

"Most of us become parents long before we have stopped being children."
By Mignon McLaughlin

Let us begin...

Although I'm already over half way through this pregnancy now, I wanted to start blogging about my journey.

I already have a twitter account but this will enable me to write longer posts.

I don't want to look back and wish I had documented more. I don't want to forget the little things that make each day count...